Pretending

Subject: Pretending Thu Nov 22, 2007 11:03 pm

Another second spent wondering
another tear wasted on nothing
i lay here trying to pretend to be everything u ever wanted
but my flaws just keep on pulling at the surface
of this thing that ive created
The thought of losing you keeps me smiling
This plastic smile that im fighting to control
And im sure you kno thats its not me
but I kno u hope that maybe , just maybe
I can compare enough to her
that you'll be happy after all
When you call me by her name
silently i cringe but i answer none the less
conforming to the cuffs of my arrest
what is it that i lack that has you running back to her
what is it that makes me imperfect in ur eyes
why is that everytime i do somthing unlike her
i end up crying like a fool becuz it makes you love me less
I get mad and i may not want to contienue this game we're playing
but that doesnt account for why im still laying
wrapped in ur arms pretending to be
someone that just isnt me